Being Invisible in a Sea Of People

Being Invisible in a Sea of People
There was a time in my life as child that I felt rejected and lonely although I would make jokes and try not to let what people said about me matter. Although people talked to me about what they knew about me or said, I understand they really did not understand me whatsoever. I felt like people were looking past me or should I say right through me. When you look up the word invisible in the dictionary, you come up with the definition of impossible or nearly impossible to see; imperceptible by the eye. Second definition not prominent or readily noticeable. That best described me as a child and sometimes as adult because individuals look at me with their natural eyes not the eyes of GOD! That is how I felt as a child and sometimes as an adult! There are differences in the way that I perceive myself when I was a child versus when I was adult but those who know me for many years do not seem to see that change. First, just because you see me as person, whom you think is not confident and because I choose not to see things, the way you want me to see them does not mean that my thoughts and voice is not valid. I am a person who has been through a lot in my life and has seen a lot so yes I am very intelligent in my own way although I do not push myself on people. Just because my skin color is dark and I am a full figure woman does not make me ugly! Those things do not make me any less loveable because I know that the one person who matters loves me and perceives as I truly am! His name is Jesus Christ and he created me so you no longer have to look at me with those pitiful looks as if you are saying poor Robbin she will never get anywhere in life or she would never get married . I am fearful and wonderful made in God and I am the apple of his eye so please stop being treating me as if I am an invisible person because if you really look you will really see that I am here. So please take me out of the narrow box you think I am in and see me as the confident beautiful butterfly that I am growing into. I will no longer let you or anyone dictate who I am but be who I truly want to be